Hospitals….Ughhhhhhh
December 21, 2009
I have been stuck in hospital hell. On my last update I mentioned that we were waiting on lab results. Well we got them. At midnight! Needless to say, I didn’t rush on it then as I knew it would be a waiting game that could be pushed off until morning. Unfortunately, no infusion center could take me until Monday so the avoidance of the ER didn’t work out as planned. So Kylie and Brenda came over and we packed for what should have been an overnight trip to the hospital. That was Friday morning. Here it is Monday evening and they are still working on discharge papers. But at least I know it will be this evening. The kicker of the whole thing is that no-one seemed to want to take charge. My infectious disease doctor was fine with letting me go the next day and so was the attending general but everyone thought it should be the oncologists call. No oncologist showed up for 3 days and when paged, they gave the run around and pointed fingers at other doctors. I just don’t get it. Anyway, as luck would have it, they found some infections beginning in my bladder and switched up my i.v. meds. Unfortunately, for no apparent reason I started breaking out in little sores all up and down my arms and legs. None of the docs can seem to explain them but let me assure you, they are called sores for a reason. Ouch! Then to top things off, they started taking my blood sugar again and the readings were in the 3 to 400 range. Huh? So they started giving me insulin. They said the high sugar was because I was on high doses of steroids but no one could tell me why, just that I couldn’t stop it cold turkey. So after a couple of days of that, I finally got a schedule I could use and an explanation for the medication.
So I have to say, this past month has really tested me. I am definitely having a difficult time trying to stay positive. I am by no means giving up or wavering on my belief that I can beat this but it’s not as easy as it was 6 months ago. My body is not the only thing that is tired right now. My mind and my soul are taking it one hour at a time. I know from experience that tomorrow could bring about a whole new attitude and I may wake up feeling amazing. That’s what I shoot for when I lay my head down at night. Tomorrow is always a new day and God is always there to carry you.
My little sister, bless her heart, gave my parents plane tickets to come se me for Christmas. I’m very excited about their trip. It’s only for three days but it is better than nothing. It will also allow them to see Ian’s play on the 24th. I’m still hoping I get to go but it’s going to be a last minute call. Not sure I can risk being around that many people even with a mask. But the video from the last program wasn’t of very high quality so I’m afraid if it’s the same company, I may miss out on a lot with him having a leading roll and all.
I am happy to say, I got my Christmas letter done. Un-happy to say, it will be after the new year before you receive it. I was printing them up Friday night when we ran out of black ink.
Thanks for your support, prayers, and encouragement. May your Christmas be everything Christ meant it to be. Hug your loved ones and say Thank You for all the blessings you have received today.